Post by Lovux The Great on May 7, 2008 16:28:34 GMT -5
Aaaah, the world of anime and manga – a world without logic, but instead, filled with many, many likeable, humane characters that are so easily to care for and be touched by their different stories. However, there are some of these characters that you happen to care a little more about, and perhaps that caring develops into something deeper, more meaningful…
In other words, you fall in love with them!
So here we rant about our different bishie obsessions we’ve had throughout our time as otakus.
Lovux starts!
Her first crush was Ishida Yamato from Digimon, also known as Matt. And damn is this didn’t change her life - FOREVER. Look, when I realized my feelings for him, I was thirteen (or was I still twelve?) and because of my background with bullies and despair caused by boys in my age, I lived after the principle “ALL GUYS SUCK!” (lol, Lovux sounds like a bad feminist). However, Yamato, or Matt which was name in which I fell for him, opened my eyes. Okay, to he really honest, was triggered with the Lord of the Rings obsession and Legolas~, but it was Yamato that made it for me. He was someone that helped me build up the person I am today.
I’ll tell you about it. I’m not afraid to call my feelings for him more than just a crush, but rather real love – never in my life have I had as strong emotional experiences as I had during the one and half a year this love lasted. I’m serious. I thought about him at least every fifteen minutes. Everything, and I mean everything, reminded me of him somehow. I’ve watched the twenty first episodes of Digimon Adventure too many times to remember. And when I watched any scene with him in, my face blushed strongly and my heart beat like mad and… yeah, you name it. I know it doesn’t sound THAT strong when you’re reading it, but it WAS. And imagine that this state lasted for MORE THAN A YEAR.
What it was that made the love come to an end?
The new guy in town of course! The next crush was Sagara Sanosuke from Rurouni Kenshin. RuroKen was the first anime I saw in japanese (subtitled of course), so it will always be special for me… and Sanosuke’s effect on me will I never forget. The way I felt all tingly and happy when hearing his rusty voice or watching his white clothes move along with him when he kicked the bad guys’ asses… I’m getting all nostalgic of thinking back on it.
Strangely enough, comparing this crush to others I’ve had, this was the one where I had the LEAST fantasies of him and me hooking up! Rather than imagining him and me kissing in the moonlight, it was Megumi from the same series that got to kiss those sweet lips. I’ve been a SanoMegu fan ever since it was first implicated in RuroKen, and it’s still one of my favourite het pairings. Ever. Perhaps it was not a real crush after all?
After that, I had a MAJOR obsession about everything that had to do with the Sonic the Hedgehog-universe, especially Knuckles. Yeah, I know, it sounds weird, having a crush on an animal (even if it was an anthro), but I couldn’t help it! I just thought he was so cool with his raw power, beautiful with his red fur, cute with his spiky mittens and SO HOT with his Japanese voice. Did I mention that Canna Nobutoshi (his seiyuu) was the first seiyuu that become my favourite? It was all because of his role as Knuckles, really.
Then the serialization of a Swedish edition of Shounen Jump started, and one of the mangas featured being… Naruto. Here, it didn’t take long before I was completely dumbstruck at the sight of Hatake Kakashi’s major awesomeness. I remember when I read the twelfth chapter and my heart beat strongly and a thought occurred my mind; “Hey… am I in love again?” and I sure was.
Thanks to the Sonic-obsession, I had gained an IRC friend who also got hooked on Naruto about at the same time as me, and I remember so clearly how we used to fangirl on MSN all the dime, despite that I had only dial-up and had strictly limited time to spend on the internet. She was all for Gaara, I was into Kakashi. This lasted until I visited her (which is, like, many many many many kilometres away from me. She lives fairly far down in Sweden, and I somewhere near the middle), and we had a Naruto marathon… and not too far after that, I slowly begun to stray away from the copy ninja and my eyes was locked on someone completely different:
Rock Lee.
Of course, like many others, I was at first disgusted by his non-traditional “bishie look”, but he grew onto me. In a way I would never expect. His fate in the series has touched me in a way that no other anime character so far can compare to that (though Atobe might be on his way). I cried non-stop during episodes 49-50 (Naruto fans knows what I’m talking about), and then there was ep 100… Oh. My. Lord. Never has a fictional story affected me like that episode did. It made me DEPRESSED. No really, it did. Ep 100 of Naruto caused so much tears for me, it’s unbelievable. I creid for three days STRAIGHT. Couldn’t sleep, hardly ate anything. All I could think of was my poor Lee. First of all, I was so sad for his destiny and this ultimatum he had to face. Secondly, it was the way his sensei, Gai supported him and told Lee that he would always be there for him and I realized that:
“Shit… I have no one.”
And I still don’t have. Some mere acquaintances and a few IRC buddies here and there, but that’s about it. No one I can talk to when I need to, no one who can give me a bear hug when I’m feeling blue, no one who accepts me for the one I am, with my flaws and good points.
I better stop before this turns into another unorginial emo rant, but you get my point.
… And that’s probably about it, I think! So, go ahead, tell good ol’ Lovux about all romantic feelings you’ve hosted towards anime characters!
Oh, and before I forget it… I didn’t include Atobe on this list because I’m not sure if my feelings for him _REALLY_ is a crush or not. It might be that I was introduced to Prince of Tennis a little “too late” and that I might not be capable of truly falling in love with an anime character again… but the feelings I have for Atobe are so different from what I’ve felt so far. It’s kind of the same, but still not. “Same-same but different”. I don’t know how to explain it. It’s just… something special. A unique emotion. I don’t know if it’s just a regular obsession or something deeper than love (there ARE bonds like that too), but I’m not sure. At all.
All I know is that Atobe is special. What he as given me will I always hold in my heart and never forget. I mean, I know I love him, but loving someone can mean so much… It has more than just one single meaning.
Blah blah blah blah, now you MUST have gotten tired of Lovux’s rants!
In other words, you fall in love with them!
So here we rant about our different bishie obsessions we’ve had throughout our time as otakus.
Lovux starts!
Her first crush was Ishida Yamato from Digimon, also known as Matt. And damn is this didn’t change her life - FOREVER. Look, when I realized my feelings for him, I was thirteen (or was I still twelve?) and because of my background with bullies and despair caused by boys in my age, I lived after the principle “ALL GUYS SUCK!” (lol, Lovux sounds like a bad feminist). However, Yamato, or Matt which was name in which I fell for him, opened my eyes. Okay, to he really honest, was triggered with the Lord of the Rings obsession and Legolas~, but it was Yamato that made it for me. He was someone that helped me build up the person I am today.
I’ll tell you about it. I’m not afraid to call my feelings for him more than just a crush, but rather real love – never in my life have I had as strong emotional experiences as I had during the one and half a year this love lasted. I’m serious. I thought about him at least every fifteen minutes. Everything, and I mean everything, reminded me of him somehow. I’ve watched the twenty first episodes of Digimon Adventure too many times to remember. And when I watched any scene with him in, my face blushed strongly and my heart beat like mad and… yeah, you name it. I know it doesn’t sound THAT strong when you’re reading it, but it WAS. And imagine that this state lasted for MORE THAN A YEAR.
What it was that made the love come to an end?
The new guy in town of course! The next crush was Sagara Sanosuke from Rurouni Kenshin. RuroKen was the first anime I saw in japanese (subtitled of course), so it will always be special for me… and Sanosuke’s effect on me will I never forget. The way I felt all tingly and happy when hearing his rusty voice or watching his white clothes move along with him when he kicked the bad guys’ asses… I’m getting all nostalgic of thinking back on it.
Strangely enough, comparing this crush to others I’ve had, this was the one where I had the LEAST fantasies of him and me hooking up! Rather than imagining him and me kissing in the moonlight, it was Megumi from the same series that got to kiss those sweet lips. I’ve been a SanoMegu fan ever since it was first implicated in RuroKen, and it’s still one of my favourite het pairings. Ever. Perhaps it was not a real crush after all?
After that, I had a MAJOR obsession about everything that had to do with the Sonic the Hedgehog-universe, especially Knuckles. Yeah, I know, it sounds weird, having a crush on an animal (even if it was an anthro), but I couldn’t help it! I just thought he was so cool with his raw power, beautiful with his red fur, cute with his spiky mittens and SO HOT with his Japanese voice. Did I mention that Canna Nobutoshi (his seiyuu) was the first seiyuu that become my favourite? It was all because of his role as Knuckles, really.
Then the serialization of a Swedish edition of Shounen Jump started, and one of the mangas featured being… Naruto. Here, it didn’t take long before I was completely dumbstruck at the sight of Hatake Kakashi’s major awesomeness. I remember when I read the twelfth chapter and my heart beat strongly and a thought occurred my mind; “Hey… am I in love again?” and I sure was.
Thanks to the Sonic-obsession, I had gained an IRC friend who also got hooked on Naruto about at the same time as me, and I remember so clearly how we used to fangirl on MSN all the dime, despite that I had only dial-up and had strictly limited time to spend on the internet. She was all for Gaara, I was into Kakashi. This lasted until I visited her (which is, like, many many many many kilometres away from me. She lives fairly far down in Sweden, and I somewhere near the middle), and we had a Naruto marathon… and not too far after that, I slowly begun to stray away from the copy ninja and my eyes was locked on someone completely different:
Rock Lee.
Of course, like many others, I was at first disgusted by his non-traditional “bishie look”, but he grew onto me. In a way I would never expect. His fate in the series has touched me in a way that no other anime character so far can compare to that (though Atobe might be on his way). I cried non-stop during episodes 49-50 (Naruto fans knows what I’m talking about), and then there was ep 100… Oh. My. Lord. Never has a fictional story affected me like that episode did. It made me DEPRESSED. No really, it did. Ep 100 of Naruto caused so much tears for me, it’s unbelievable. I creid for three days STRAIGHT. Couldn’t sleep, hardly ate anything. All I could think of was my poor Lee. First of all, I was so sad for his destiny and this ultimatum he had to face. Secondly, it was the way his sensei, Gai supported him and told Lee that he would always be there for him and I realized that:
“Shit… I have no one.”
And I still don’t have. Some mere acquaintances and a few IRC buddies here and there, but that’s about it. No one I can talk to when I need to, no one who can give me a bear hug when I’m feeling blue, no one who accepts me for the one I am, with my flaws and good points.
I better stop before this turns into another unorginial emo rant, but you get my point.
… And that’s probably about it, I think! So, go ahead, tell good ol’ Lovux about all romantic feelings you’ve hosted towards anime characters!
Oh, and before I forget it… I didn’t include Atobe on this list because I’m not sure if my feelings for him _REALLY_ is a crush or not. It might be that I was introduced to Prince of Tennis a little “too late” and that I might not be capable of truly falling in love with an anime character again… but the feelings I have for Atobe are so different from what I’ve felt so far. It’s kind of the same, but still not. “Same-same but different”. I don’t know how to explain it. It’s just… something special. A unique emotion. I don’t know if it’s just a regular obsession or something deeper than love (there ARE bonds like that too), but I’m not sure. At all.
All I know is that Atobe is special. What he as given me will I always hold in my heart and never forget. I mean, I know I love him, but loving someone can mean so much… It has more than just one single meaning.
Blah blah blah blah, now you MUST have gotten tired of Lovux’s rants!
He's from Gundam Wing.
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